So here I go.
This is something i spent a lot of time making my mind up about it, thinking and analyzing. Looking at my life from another perspective, it seems to contain of quite a lot of rollercoasters of feelings. I can laugh so hard, even my tummy muscels start to ace, but on the other hand I can also ball my eyes out when getting upset. I do think I can get angry with someone. It usually turns out that I'm not really that angry very long and just get very upset, sad and depressed about things.
Yesterday I had a very low and down day. It wasn't one of my best. And now looking back, I'm quite disappointed with myself. Today is a new day and I want to make the best out of it. It's what I want to do with every single day. Unfortunately yesterday I kind of failed. So now I have to make up for two days. It's never too late I think. If I had to name you a life goal, I would probably answer: Be happy? That's all I want and all I can ask for. That doesn't mean I will do everything only so I am the happiest person on earth, never mind how others feel about it. When I say all I want to reach for in life is happiness, I mean I want to be that person who wakes up every morning with a smile on her face, without the fact, that maybe not everything is working out perfectly, not everything is possibly the way you would want it. But you still find a reason to make you smile. I want to notice every little positive thing in every day.
Doesn't matter how small it is.
It will remind you how worthwhile and treacherous you and your tiny little world of people, problems, job, food, etc actually is.
That includes making other people happy as well. Because seeing someone beeing happy because of something you said or that you did, is very fulfilling and all in all feels great I guess. To me it does.
There is a quote I read, which said: "Your journey will be much lighter and easier if you don't carry your past with you". I believe your past will always be a part of you. You may not want to remember things about your past, things you didn't like or days which made you upset. But even those days capture moments, which helped you become the person you are today. Even those memories, which you'd like to erase, they are actually helping you understand things, helping you handle situations in the future.
A broken heart of yours teaches you how to fix it. If you are having a sad day, it teaches you how to get happy again. In reality you only need to start to open your eyes. You don't even have to search long. As soon as you start looking for the good you will find the beauty in things even quicker than you thought. You will start to enjoy, capture and appreciate it. Suddenly the first cup of coffee, the sun that touches your face when waking up, the smell of breakfast, the warm shower, a lonely walk through the park, a butterfly on the window sill, the neighbors kids' smile, a hug from someone you love, or only the fact you are getting another chance to make the best out of your day every single time you wake up in the morning. (Gosh that sounded terribly cheesy, like out of a Nicholas Sparks novel but way worse. But all in all I hope you get what I am saying. Even though it sounds terribly cheesy it actually has some truth behind it...)
If there was a difficulty the other day it doesn't matter now.
Today is your opportunity.
So already writing this down made me feel better. Maybe possibly someone reads this and gets inspired by it. It is way easier than it sounds. Sometimes we only have to start.
I've got the best and most lovely people in my life and I am very grateful for them. I want to tell them this more often, they should know how much they mean to me. And a short little message maybe can make their day a little brighter. And as I already said, seeing the people I love being happy, can also make my day.